I know I've been missing for a few weeks. Its been a crazy roller coaster ride in my house for the past month. Exactly a month ago I was being strapped to an operating table to bring our daughter into this world. I didn't know at the time that she was a girl. We didn't find out before delivery. It was exciting and scary and I was mostly calm because I had a plan. Here's the thing about our plans. They aren't sure until they've already happened.
Human plans are fleeting and unsure. I knew I was going to get to hold my new baby as soon as they were done closing me up. But, that's not how it went. There were complications, and I'd have to wait. I thought ok, a couple of hours and she'll be in the room with us. But, I'd have to wait. Eventually, she did come to our room. Eventually, we both went home together. But, then at home more complications. Now, there is a worldwide pandemic and there's more waiting.
Here's the real question... What are we waiting on? Are we waiting on things to go back to normal? Are we waiting on the perfect day? Are we waiting on the virus to get us so we can get over it and move on? Are we waiting for the government to fix it? Or... Are we waiting on God to show us His plan?
In the midst of prep and surgery to deliver our baby girl, there were hiccups, as there always are. They couldn't find a vein. Then when they did it took 3 tries to get it. Then eventually that good one popped. So then comes number 4. Then meds made me sick. I could go on. But the thing that God kept showing me and reminding me was that there is grace enough for all of that. There is grace enough for everything. Because God is big enough for everything.
He also kept reminding me that its ok to be weak. It is ok to be upset that things didn't go the way I wanted them to. It's ok to be scared that things are going to be hard. It's ok to be nervous because you are unsure about the future. But don't stay there. Tell God your fears. Tell him where you don't have enough strength. Tell him where you don't have enough faith. And watch him give you enough grace for those places.
In this very uncertain time, there is enough grace for us, but there is also enough grace for our neighbors. Now is the time to see where people truly are. See where people are hurting and scared and worried, and don't just give them space give them grace. Be kind. Be prayerful. Be loving.
I love you all and I pray that as we are socially distant from one another right now that our hearts would draw closer to God and also each other.
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